wooooow! finally posting again after a way tiring week. supps was ok i guess, din get called for supp vivas so for now no news is good news heh. anyway, FAITH! yeps so im qt happy i guess :) hmm yeah anwyay after supps was medicamp which was ok i guess... REALLY tiring! but ill put up fotos another time la. elton(my laptop) is in candice's car so i have to use my lousy desktop still haha. anyway technology clearly hates me la. either tt or GOd is trying to tell me something but i really dont know what! anyway, first my mp3 died on me like suddenly cannot turn on, then my hp fell into the pool at camp so have to use my old phone which like tends to suddenly die on me halfway, and then my laptop cannot turn on! and summore when i came back home the cable was spoilt :S (but fix alr) so like yah. maybe i have some magnetic waves tt kills technology but its really annoying la. hmm well anyway, the weekend was spent mainly in church and yeah was good to refresh! really need to start focussing less on playing and more on God tho, i read this passage in a devotional about how when the light of God dies in us, thats hell, and i really think so man. knowing the love and light He brings and then losing it has to be the worst feeling ever so i really dont want that to happen!
hmm anyway ive been thinking abt friends and i dunno, sometimes its like i feel abit annoyed cos my closest friends are all in camp and cant go out with me, and so slowly i am starting to not have any close friends at all. (outside med la) yah so its like all my friends are in med and tts like not too healthy right haha. and even in church its like i love them alot but there seems to be a barrier sometimes and i guess its when i dont get invited to stuff and the feeling tt even if i do i dont really wanna go. its qt sad but actually i dont really think its tt diff from normal la just tt THEY have started to go out more often but i guess WE never really went out in the first place. its like i hear certain names then i just dont wanna go anymore. tts qt bad right! not tt i hate them or anything just tt i have nothing to say to them la i guess. hmm and then the ones i do wanna go out with are like being really dao so tts not so nice too. dunno la we are called to love our brothers and sisters in Christ and i do! just tt i am not really able to talk to them, so thats not wrong right? hmm.
anyway to someone: im really qt hurt by you and the thing is you dont even seem to care and i dont think you even know and thats kinda the worst thing, and i dont even know if u will see this cos sometimes it seems like you dont see me as a good friend anymore and i really have no idea why. its like when u need someone cos u have nothing better to do then ull call me but when you dont feel like it then all of a sudden im not your friend anymore and that REALLY REALLY sucks. i guess its a trust thing and to be honest, i dont really trust you much anymore so maybe this is better. whatever.
anyway, i have a councilee!!!!hahaha. poor guy tho everyone is like laughing at him, but i totally have turned over a new leaf and will set him a good example ok! contrary to popular belief, deep down inside i am a hardworking girl its just tt tt side of me has been covered for a while but it will come out again!!!!!anyway i decided to stay at home so i will be in sch everyday this yr ok! woohoo. for a start la. then i will slowly try to listen in class too haha. but one step at a time ya :) anyway there is like a really cute guy in m1 haha. omy. im a lamer but i guess im too bored la... nothing better to do oso then to look haha.
oooooo. btw i had a lovely cell outing on sunday, we went botanic gardens and tho the bus ride there was kinda sian, once we reached it was soooo nice haha. cos the weather rocked and we had the most and biggest mats there and all 7 of us could lie down and loll around with room to spare and the food was yummy and the company great :) i love my little girls heh, being their cell leader has really been one of the greatest priviliges of my life!(although the really do enjoy bullying me by doing things like rolling me down the hill at botanics which was soooo embarrassing!)
hmm anyway ive been thinking abt friends and i dunno, sometimes its like i feel abit annoyed cos my closest friends are all in camp and cant go out with me, and so slowly i am starting to not have any close friends at all. (outside med la) yah so its like all my friends are in med and tts like not too healthy right haha. and even in church its like i love them alot but there seems to be a barrier sometimes and i guess its when i dont get invited to stuff and the feeling tt even if i do i dont really wanna go. its qt sad but actually i dont really think its tt diff from normal la just tt THEY have started to go out more often but i guess WE never really went out in the first place. its like i hear certain names then i just dont wanna go anymore. tts qt bad right! not tt i hate them or anything just tt i have nothing to say to them la i guess. hmm and then the ones i do wanna go out with are like being really dao so tts not so nice too. dunno la we are called to love our brothers and sisters in Christ and i do! just tt i am not really able to talk to them, so thats not wrong right? hmm.
anyway to someone: im really qt hurt by you and the thing is you dont even seem to care and i dont think you even know and thats kinda the worst thing, and i dont even know if u will see this cos sometimes it seems like you dont see me as a good friend anymore and i really have no idea why. its like when u need someone cos u have nothing better to do then ull call me but when you dont feel like it then all of a sudden im not your friend anymore and that REALLY REALLY sucks. i guess its a trust thing and to be honest, i dont really trust you much anymore so maybe this is better. whatever.
anyway, i have a councilee!!!!hahaha. poor guy tho everyone is like laughing at him, but i totally have turned over a new leaf and will set him a good example ok! contrary to popular belief, deep down inside i am a hardworking girl its just tt tt side of me has been covered for a while but it will come out again!!!!!anyway i decided to stay at home so i will be in sch everyday this yr ok! woohoo. for a start la. then i will slowly try to listen in class too haha. but one step at a time ya :) anyway there is like a really cute guy in m1 haha. omy. im a lamer but i guess im too bored la... nothing better to do oso then to look haha.
oooooo. btw i had a lovely cell outing on sunday, we went botanic gardens and tho the bus ride there was kinda sian, once we reached it was soooo nice haha. cos the weather rocked and we had the most and biggest mats there and all 7 of us could lie down and loll around with room to spare and the food was yummy and the company great :) i love my little girls heh, being their cell leader has really been one of the greatest priviliges of my life!(although the really do enjoy bullying me by doing things like rolling me down the hill at botanics which was soooo embarrassing!)
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